lundi 16 mai 2011

ode to oxycontin




i'm so sick of walking on eggshells
so sick of the slander
sick of the sick 
sick of the pain 
sick of government policy

i'm here to tell you
(and that is no small miracle)
that oxycontin saved my life
while this may seem pathetic to you
you do not live with my pain

after three months
of downward titration
on half the small dose
i took for 12 years
i hit the pain wall

the pharmacist said:
oxycontin releases one third
of its medicine up front
consequently it has more
addiction potential

well, thank god
for that release
three times a day
i have a 2-hour window
and air comes in

the pharmacist said:
oxycontin has no
generic substitute
it is very expensive and it is
not part of our formulary

well, thank god
i'm more important
than money!
they are letting me keep
my 50% reduction

oh praise the 20 mg
of forgetfulness
praise the rush
of temporary freedom
i am not ashamed of it

oh praise oxycontin
the only narcotic that doesn't
knock me out
i might write a poem today
or even answer the telephone

do not crush cut or mutilate
take only as directed
do not share with the neighbors
sign your name and date
on this dotted line

oh praise oxycontin
take the cuffs off the doctors
and the pain patients it helps
stop making us feel
like criminals

1 commentaire:

Laura Tattoo a dit…

i suppose i should thank "foreign pharmacies" for this educational post. mine is purely subjective and is not intended for promotion or distribution of the drug oxycodone or its derivatives. i'm just a miserable poet in pain, and oxycontin saved my life. that's my story and i'm sticking to it, and the rest be damned. i would rather have a life now and die later (as opposed to the myth of dying now and living later). xoxoxoxo