pain that doesn't end

there's no metaphor in me

no irony or pathos

no poetry

just a stark pain

running down my arm

into my rib cage

there's no singing

no christmas

no holiday cheer

just a wish that my

heart would stop

knocking at my breast bone

it's simple:

when pain does not end

and you know it never will

what reasons can be given

for pushing through the heartbreak

of life on earth?

i've gone through them all

over and over in my head

but i'm still left hopeless

for sickness and pain

do not have an up side

beyond the cliché

and nobody knows

what it takes to keep doing it

alone in your room