battered

battered back again

to my previous pain levels

right arm throbs to the wrist

big muscle across my shoulder

grips and burns

rotator cuff in front

burns into my breast

and it's constant

i'm still fighting

for pain meds

fighting after

15 years

explaining

what my disease is

to family, friends

and doctors alike

when will they

get it?

i can't stretch it out

eat it out

walk it out

accupuncture it out

meditate it out

or psychoanalyze it out

nothing works but opioids

and when it's

this bad

i can't think at all

i can't know

what to do

what not to do

the sickness

the nausea

the vertigo

the pain spreads

throughout my body

if they don't

give me

what i need

i won't be 

able to

stay here

what will it take

to stop the battering

not by pain

but by doctors?

if i only had a glove

i could give them

let them put it on

and feel what i feel

they would treat me

in a heart beat